Have you ever had the thought, “This is not supposed to be my life!” Have you ever spent hours, weeks, months, even years working and toiling toward a dream for your life that despite your best efforts just won’t materialize? Do you ever think, “Where did I go wrong?”
God and I have been working through some of these questions over the past two years. In giving up my full-time teaching position when my husband was appointed to another church, I never dreamed that I would have any trouble finding another position. And yet, two years later, doors have not opened. I have questioned myself, questioned my abilities, questioned my purpose and have struggled to develop some sort of clear concise plan for my future. At the age of 35 I find myself asking/screaming, “What am I supposed to do with my life?” And the answer that I come to is this. What I’m doing now is exactly what I’m supposed to be doing. Look at this quote from author, Beth Moore:
When I look at my life, I realize that God has used this time to do some good work in my soul. He’s taught me what it means to surrender, to trust, to truly depend on him. Because I’m not teaching full-time I have had the opportunity to spend quality time with my children, to help start a community theater in our area, to write and to engage in Bible study and time with God. It’s been good, and it brings me joy. Even though my professional life may not look the way I think it should, I can trust that God has placed me where he wants me for his victory. And, as a child of God, his victory is mine.
Whenever you doubt yourself. Whenever you feel you’re not good enough, you’re not doing enough, you’re not fulfilling your potential, remember; God has placed you in a place of VICTORY!!
The Lord gives victory to his anointed.
He answers him from his heavenly sanctuary
with the victorious power of his right hand.