I tend to me rather impulsive. I like spur of the moment road trips across several states. If something catches my eye in a store, I like being able to buy it then and there. I like surprising my kids and my husband with gifts they sometimes don’t want and often don’t need. When I get an idea for a ministry project, I tend to just dive right in before swimming through the details. Impulsivity is something I am comfortable with.
God, however, is not impulsive. As it took almost 800 years from the promise made to Abraham about inheriting the land of Canaan and the actual inheritance of said land, I would say that God is the direct opposite of impulsive!! God is a methodical planner. I see this trait come alive in my loving husband. Chris never builds/starts/buys anything without thorough research and planning. If I’m perfectly honest, it drives me absolutely crazy, especially when it involves multiple trips to three different home improvement stores. By the time I’m ready to scream, “Just pick something already!”, we’re moving onto store number two.
But, if I’m still being perfectly honest (which I am) it is a quality that I love and cherish about him. His methodical planning of everything allows me to rest assured in all of the decisions he makes. I trust him and I value his opinion because I know it’s carefully formulated with lots of consumer research. While I’m diving into the deep water, he’s standing above holding a life preserver!
And yet, even though I know that God is not impulsive, even though I know that He has a plan and has painstakingly attended (and is attending to) every detail, I still find myself screaming, “Just do something already! I’m tired of waiting!!”
Sometimes, I even try and push God to force His hand. Instead of waiting and trusting in God’s omnipotence and sovereignty over my life, I jump in and try to get the ball rolling myself. I pull the, “Well if you’re not going to do anything about it then I guess I’ll have to” card. Needless to say, it never works. In fact, quite the opposite really. My refusal to let go of situations and trust in God most often moves me farther back than I was to begin with. I create situations in which God has to act, but it’s not to move my life forward, rather, it’s to clean up the new mess I’ve made.
The truth is, God doesn’t need us to do His job for Him. As the Creator and Sustainer of the Universe, He’s got it pretty well under control. Moreover, He has a plan which He has been in the process of implementing since the dawn of time. And God has graciously and perfectly placed us within that plan. And while my impulsivity doesn’t take me out of God’s perfect plan, for nothing in heaven or earth or below can keep us from the great love of God, it can make the road a bit more difficult.
And so, I wait, begrudgingly at times, but with the knowledge that He who knit me together in my mother’s womb is putting it all together.
Blessings and Peace,